I think I’m in Limbo
it’s past midnight but it feels like Forever
I’m so tired but I can’t quiet my mind
-not even to a hum
Please, Dear God,
Let me sleep
But let me feel no pain in my dreams
Let me go forth and dream without end, without regret, and without sorrow,
For I am the one who aches when they sleep
i was told we can't touch love
but the feeling of your hand in mine
of your lips on my forehead
of your head on my lap
makes me think that maybe we can
in your hand there is a lit candle
that smells of chinese
of sweat
of tears
of your cologne
and my perfume .
we lock eyes
and with a silent agreement,
press our lips together in one last kiss
and when we pull back,
we take one big breath,
and blow out the candle together.
i need you to kiss me
until we're swallowing each other's words
living off of each other's breath
until we've memorized the curve of each other's lips
i need you to give me the breath that'll keep me alive
the breath that'll help me grow
i need you to breathe strength into my weary bones
give me what i'm craving most
a will to live and fight and fucking be
sometimes i wanna come crawling back to you
beg you for forgiveness
apologize until my voice dies
but then i remember
we’re no longer friends
because we went through too much shit
to stay true to each other
and i’m so sorry
that you ever met me
my dearest friend
a kiss
that's what comes to mind when i think of you
the sweetest of kisses
a brief meeting of lips
a smile
a giggle
a blush
a gentle hand on my cheek
a need for more
there's always a need for more
dead
that's kind of what it feels like to be exhausted
like you don't even exist
like you're soulless
drifting through time and space with no clear goal in mind
i'm dead inside